9/4

The High Holy Days are here. This year I pray and fast as usual. Each year I get a clearer understanding of how the Most High operates in our lives. It's personal, but not as personal as some folks, a lot of folks, think. If you notice, there is ORDER in this universe. If you notice, of all the knowledge we have attained, there is still ONE thing we cannot comprehend, or know for sure, and that is how life works and why it works; we only know that it works. Like electricity, we use the power but cannot really say or understand how the source of that power is generated.


9/5

Been routinely getting in my prayers and meditations, as well as my yoga asanas. Long time since they all been consistent.

Thought about CG the other day. Thinking how we got to be an item at that time. I was really attracted to her. She was the most mature out of all the girls I met that summer. It never occurred to me that any actions toward her would have been "statutory rape."

9/6

With my 63rd b-day on the horizon, I'm looking to do something unique. If this was back in the day, it would be no question.

I got new lamps already, a tv and dvd player, and some wall art. Would love to have/get some new linen for my futon. Speaking of which, I switched my bedroom up like back when I was at 270, with the futon giving me an unlimited amount of space to live and work in. I'm much more relaxed now.

9/7

A shopping spree is definitely the way to go. So far, for my b-day, which is Monday, the 9th, I have some events planned out.

First thing, I'm getting my coffee table and another futon cover, brown. I would love the end tables too, but I don't see a spot for them, but I keep looking. I wanna browse/shop at Wal-Mart's and Macy's. I need an outfit for Alexis' workshop on the 30th. The possibilities are unlimited.

9/8

A few hours from now I will tip the scales at 63 years of age. How blessed is that. I'm glad I feel fine. My body is in relatively good shape, and all my facilities are working.

As it stands now, for my b-day, I will browse the aisles at Target and see what jumps out at me.

9/9

Funny how I haven't felt any older since I can remember when. The steady invasion and conquering that my gray hairs are doing is my only clue. Yeah, every now and then I see it in my face. The lines are firmly establishing themselves. I'm an older person, but I feel good about the process, as well I should because nothing can turn back the clock.

I look forward to living a clean happy end of the rest of my life, a life filled with carefree living. Oh yeah, that's right, I'm doing me.

9/10

Not out the woods with hypertension, but I feel like I know what I should be doing. It won't catch me off guard any more. I monitor my sodium intake and my pressure on a daily. It feels good to know what's what.

I'm scared but I would love to love again. Of course it has to be the perfect situation. I really think I'm more interested in sexual and romantic feelings more than anything else, but haven't I always...Nothing has changed in that department.

I fantasize an old/young flame rekindling kind of something.