9/18
I used to have a real thing for A.S. back awhile ago when I was still working at BH Houses. She was the bitch of my dreams back then. Fine and beautiful, about eleven years younger than I, but you know me, age ain never been but a number to me. We never got off on a romantic track but I sent her cards expressing my feelings for her on every occasion I could, especially romantic holidays.
She called me out of the blue one day, around 1988 or something like that, to find out what was up with me, but at the time I was all wrapped up in something. We made a date to see each other, but I didn't bother to show up. I had BL in my life then, and there was no need to even start something I couldn't finish.
9/19
919 has some bitter-sweet memories for me. I lived at 919 Lincoln Place once upon a time after I first got married. I was attending the New York Institute of Photography at the time and I remember setting up a darkroom in the extra bed room we had.
It was a sweet memory developing my own rolls of film and seeing my pictures come to life. I felt so professional.
But then my wife never came home until early in the morning, and didn't ever give me those much anticipated newlywed goods. She was too busy giving them to another man.
9/20
It's been a good run for this Summer Writing Binge concept I came up with for my blog, "Let's Talk Poetry." I made an entry almost every day except for these last few days of the month, when I ran out of time to get to my notebooks. Actually, I scheduled my entries for about 10:30 pm, but by the time the hour rolled around I was often too sleepy to write anything coherent.
In the next binge segment I will make entries earlier in the day when my head is fresher and clearer. This could be the start of something.
9/21
This is the last day and night of the summer of 2013, and the last entry for my summer poetry writing binge. Most of the entries are free-writings for five minute intervals. I will cull through these entries and make a poem out of each one where a poem is found.
As a whole, my students on "Let's Talk Poetry," as well as myself, wrote whatever came to our minds at the time. Now I will query my students and challenge them to come up with poetry from those entries, and I will do the same, because I never give my students an assignment I don't complete myself.
I will continue these free-write activities for the winter of 2015.
Monday, October 17, 2016
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
9/15
My prayers are that everything in my life will continue as it has been. What will be, will be, but I would love for everything to just fall in line like they spoze to.
Sill waiting for some word bout the settlement check. I've signed and had some papers notarized. I'm up to here with the formalities of legality. I just wanna get the money my mother's responsible for and do the right thing.
9/16
My nephew, Tekoa turns 38 today. My baby sister's oldest child has been without her for a couple of years now. Bunch died right after my mother, just leaving us all in shock. And he, being slightly mentally delayed, we don't understand how much he understood, except that he knows she won't be there any more. Sad, as close as they were. If he could express himself more, verbally, he probably could tell us things we never knew.
9/17
Made a lot of improvements or decorations in my home, but I still have a ways to go yet. The major purchases have all been made for the most part, except for a dining room set. I plan to make that purchase around the Thanksgiving holiday time. The little nik-niks that go with it will come afterwards.
Then, in the kitchen I want a new microwave and pots and pans and rugs for every room needs to be replaced. By the year's end, this house will have my touch throughout.
My prayers are that everything in my life will continue as it has been. What will be, will be, but I would love for everything to just fall in line like they spoze to.
Sill waiting for some word bout the settlement check. I've signed and had some papers notarized. I'm up to here with the formalities of legality. I just wanna get the money my mother's responsible for and do the right thing.
9/16
My nephew, Tekoa turns 38 today. My baby sister's oldest child has been without her for a couple of years now. Bunch died right after my mother, just leaving us all in shock. And he, being slightly mentally delayed, we don't understand how much he understood, except that he knows she won't be there any more. Sad, as close as they were. If he could express himself more, verbally, he probably could tell us things we never knew.
9/17
Made a lot of improvements or decorations in my home, but I still have a ways to go yet. The major purchases have all been made for the most part, except for a dining room set. I plan to make that purchase around the Thanksgiving holiday time. The little nik-niks that go with it will come afterwards.
Then, in the kitchen I want a new microwave and pots and pans and rugs for every room needs to be replaced. By the year's end, this house will have my touch throughout.
Monday, October 3, 2016
9/11...
...is one of those days you will always remember where you were "When." Some say it was a terrorist attack, but who really knows? I had done a double-shift that night and hurried home to my wife and small children. The oldest two children were already in school. My older two sons were also about their daily schedule. My wife walked out the door several minutes before the first tower went down. I watched in horror and amazement. I immediately called my wife on her cell and told her what had just happened. She insisted her mission to the city for her job was important, and further, "was not even in that direction." She didn't know it then but that train she took was the last train out of Brooklyn for a long while.
9/12
Got myself a cd player. Another one of my many b-day presents I bought myself. No sense in holding on to too much cash. I'm out to enjoy myself from now on. I look forward to many more self-treats like this. Got my eyes on a tape deck too. I probably reel it in in a week or two. I will then have all of my music at my beck and call. My entire collection: vinyl, including a vocabulary set, cassettes, and cd's are at my disposal, not to mention the latest mp3 type formats.
9/13
They say when the thirteenth of the month falls on Friday it's a bad luck day; for those of us who believe in such things, maybe, anyway.
I never was one much for superstition, but shit happens. My son's car got towed. Not because of bad luck. He was parked in a tow-away zone!
My daughter's ex or not, was suspended from his job. Whose fault was that? Bad luck?
I'm a firm believer in what will be will be.
So much for bad luck!
9/14
Holiest day of the year finds me with my scriptures as usual. I'm praying that a good year will be inscribed for me. My whole life has been a "good year" though. I have never wanted for anything, ever. I may have had some ups and downs, but for the most part, everything has been great.
...is one of those days you will always remember where you were "When." Some say it was a terrorist attack, but who really knows? I had done a double-shift that night and hurried home to my wife and small children. The oldest two children were already in school. My older two sons were also about their daily schedule. My wife walked out the door several minutes before the first tower went down. I watched in horror and amazement. I immediately called my wife on her cell and told her what had just happened. She insisted her mission to the city for her job was important, and further, "was not even in that direction." She didn't know it then but that train she took was the last train out of Brooklyn for a long while.
9/12
Got myself a cd player. Another one of my many b-day presents I bought myself. No sense in holding on to too much cash. I'm out to enjoy myself from now on. I look forward to many more self-treats like this. Got my eyes on a tape deck too. I probably reel it in in a week or two. I will then have all of my music at my beck and call. My entire collection: vinyl, including a vocabulary set, cassettes, and cd's are at my disposal, not to mention the latest mp3 type formats.
9/13
They say when the thirteenth of the month falls on Friday it's a bad luck day; for those of us who believe in such things, maybe, anyway.
I never was one much for superstition, but shit happens. My son's car got towed. Not because of bad luck. He was parked in a tow-away zone!
My daughter's ex or not, was suspended from his job. Whose fault was that? Bad luck?
I'm a firm believer in what will be will be.
So much for bad luck!
9/14
Holiest day of the year finds me with my scriptures as usual. I'm praying that a good year will be inscribed for me. My whole life has been a "good year" though. I have never wanted for anything, ever. I may have had some ups and downs, but for the most part, everything has been great.
Monday, September 19, 2016
9/4
The High Holy Days are here. This year I pray and fast as usual. Each year I get a clearer understanding of how the Most High operates in our lives. It's personal, but not as personal as some folks, a lot of folks, think. If you notice, there is ORDER in this universe. If you notice, of all the knowledge we have attained, there is still ONE thing we cannot comprehend, or know for sure, and that is how life works and why it works; we only know that it works. Like electricity, we use the power but cannot really say or understand how the source of that power is generated.
9/5
Been routinely getting in my prayers and meditations, as well as my yoga asanas. Long time since they all been consistent.
Thought about CG the other day. Thinking how we got to be an item at that time. I was really attracted to her. She was the most mature out of all the girls I met that summer. It never occurred to me that any actions toward her would have been "statutory rape."
9/6
With my 63rd b-day on the horizon, I'm looking to do something unique. If this was back in the day, it would be no question.
I got new lamps already, a tv and dvd player, and some wall art. Would love to have/get some new linen for my futon. Speaking of which, I switched my bedroom up like back when I was at 270, with the futon giving me an unlimited amount of space to live and work in. I'm much more relaxed now.
9/7
A shopping spree is definitely the way to go. So far, for my b-day, which is Monday, the 9th, I have some events planned out.
First thing, I'm getting my coffee table and another futon cover, brown. I would love the end tables too, but I don't see a spot for them, but I keep looking. I wanna browse/shop at Wal-Mart's and Macy's. I need an outfit for Alexis' workshop on the 30th. The possibilities are unlimited.
9/8
A few hours from now I will tip the scales at 63 years of age. How blessed is that. I'm glad I feel fine. My body is in relatively good shape, and all my facilities are working.
As it stands now, for my b-day, I will browse the aisles at Target and see what jumps out at me.
9/9
Funny how I haven't felt any older since I can remember when. The steady invasion and conquering that my gray hairs are doing is my only clue. Yeah, every now and then I see it in my face. The lines are firmly establishing themselves. I'm an older person, but I feel good about the process, as well I should because nothing can turn back the clock.
I look forward to living a clean happy end of the rest of my life, a life filled with carefree living. Oh yeah, that's right, I'm doing me.
9/10
Not out the woods with hypertension, but I feel like I know what I should be doing. It won't catch me off guard any more. I monitor my sodium intake and my pressure on a daily. It feels good to know what's what.
I'm scared but I would love to love again. Of course it has to be the perfect situation. I really think I'm more interested in sexual and romantic feelings more than anything else, but haven't I always...Nothing has changed in that department.
I fantasize an old/young flame rekindling kind of something.
The High Holy Days are here. This year I pray and fast as usual. Each year I get a clearer understanding of how the Most High operates in our lives. It's personal, but not as personal as some folks, a lot of folks, think. If you notice, there is ORDER in this universe. If you notice, of all the knowledge we have attained, there is still ONE thing we cannot comprehend, or know for sure, and that is how life works and why it works; we only know that it works. Like electricity, we use the power but cannot really say or understand how the source of that power is generated.
9/5
Been routinely getting in my prayers and meditations, as well as my yoga asanas. Long time since they all been consistent.
Thought about CG the other day. Thinking how we got to be an item at that time. I was really attracted to her. She was the most mature out of all the girls I met that summer. It never occurred to me that any actions toward her would have been "statutory rape."
9/6
With my 63rd b-day on the horizon, I'm looking to do something unique. If this was back in the day, it would be no question.
I got new lamps already, a tv and dvd player, and some wall art. Would love to have/get some new linen for my futon. Speaking of which, I switched my bedroom up like back when I was at 270, with the futon giving me an unlimited amount of space to live and work in. I'm much more relaxed now.
9/7
A shopping spree is definitely the way to go. So far, for my b-day, which is Monday, the 9th, I have some events planned out.
First thing, I'm getting my coffee table and another futon cover, brown. I would love the end tables too, but I don't see a spot for them, but I keep looking. I wanna browse/shop at Wal-Mart's and Macy's. I need an outfit for Alexis' workshop on the 30th. The possibilities are unlimited.
9/8
A few hours from now I will tip the scales at 63 years of age. How blessed is that. I'm glad I feel fine. My body is in relatively good shape, and all my facilities are working.
As it stands now, for my b-day, I will browse the aisles at Target and see what jumps out at me.
9/9
Funny how I haven't felt any older since I can remember when. The steady invasion and conquering that my gray hairs are doing is my only clue. Yeah, every now and then I see it in my face. The lines are firmly establishing themselves. I'm an older person, but I feel good about the process, as well I should because nothing can turn back the clock.
I look forward to living a clean happy end of the rest of my life, a life filled with carefree living. Oh yeah, that's right, I'm doing me.
9/10
Not out the woods with hypertension, but I feel like I know what I should be doing. It won't catch me off guard any more. I monitor my sodium intake and my pressure on a daily. It feels good to know what's what.
I'm scared but I would love to love again. Of course it has to be the perfect situation. I really think I'm more interested in sexual and romantic feelings more than anything else, but haven't I always...Nothing has changed in that department.
I fantasize an old/young flame rekindling kind of something.
Wednesday, August 3, 2016
9/1
Messed around all day and forgot to call Doll for her bday. Actually I did call but got a busy signal at the time. After I got into my routine I remembered but it was much too late. I should have called her at six this morning when I thought it was too early. See how things work out.
Feeling much better lately so I hope the trend continues. When my bday roll along in a few days I wanna be well.
9/2
Spent bout an hour and a half waiting for a bus that didn't show up. I understand it was a holiday (Labor Day) but come on man! You would have thought the bus only ran in one direction because at least (in that same time frame) three buses went by on the other side.
I guess in the end I learned patience cause that bus still ain't showed up yet and I done everything I started out to do that day.
9/3
I don't know if I said this somewhere else before, but I give up on B.L. I tried, I tried in every way I could to have a harmonious relationship, just for the sake of the kid's heads, really, but it didn't work. So fuckit! Que sera, sera. Life is too valuable to waste on pure bullshit, to short to be fuckin around with ignorant people. I wasted enough time already. If only I knew.
Well all things in their time and guess what? I know now.
Messed around all day and forgot to call Doll for her bday. Actually I did call but got a busy signal at the time. After I got into my routine I remembered but it was much too late. I should have called her at six this morning when I thought it was too early. See how things work out.
Feeling much better lately so I hope the trend continues. When my bday roll along in a few days I wanna be well.
9/2
Spent bout an hour and a half waiting for a bus that didn't show up. I understand it was a holiday (Labor Day) but come on man! You would have thought the bus only ran in one direction because at least (in that same time frame) three buses went by on the other side.
I guess in the end I learned patience cause that bus still ain't showed up yet and I done everything I started out to do that day.
9/3
I don't know if I said this somewhere else before, but I give up on B.L. I tried, I tried in every way I could to have a harmonious relationship, just for the sake of the kid's heads, really, but it didn't work. So fuckit! Que sera, sera. Life is too valuable to waste on pure bullshit, to short to be fuckin around with ignorant people. I wasted enough time already. If only I knew.
Well all things in their time and guess what? I know now.
Thursday, June 30, 2016
8/30
I'm not in the mood for love anymore. Not like before anyway. I just need a partner to share some special moments with, if you know what I mean. I just don't have the fortitude or the patience, or especially the time. I'm also just not in the mood for love anymore. Not like before anyway.
8/31
Turning over that new leaf I been turning over for years now. Now is the time. I have so much to look forward to: My first grand child; I just found out too, that my first born son is getting married next May. I hope by then I have some arm candy, but now that I think about it, even if that is the case, it wouldn't be a good idea to show them off. I'm not trying to make anybody uncomfortable. I just wanna do my thing and get my groove on for a while, cause I feel it in my bones that I still got plenty of those type days left in me.
I'm not in the mood for love anymore. Not like before anyway. I just need a partner to share some special moments with, if you know what I mean. I just don't have the fortitude or the patience, or especially the time. I'm also just not in the mood for love anymore. Not like before anyway.
8/31
Turning over that new leaf I been turning over for years now. Now is the time. I have so much to look forward to: My first grand child; I just found out too, that my first born son is getting married next May. I hope by then I have some arm candy, but now that I think about it, even if that is the case, it wouldn't be a good idea to show them off. I'm not trying to make anybody uncomfortable. I just wanna do my thing and get my groove on for a while, cause I feel it in my bones that I still got plenty of those type days left in me.
Saturday, June 11, 2016
8/27
C.G. was the very first of the PYTs of my adult life. Although we were only 6 years apart when I met her, she was only 15. I was amazed at her maturity. She was a Sagittarius who was well ahead of her time. We shared a lot of feelings but no romance. Years later when she became of age, we thought about it, but her care for other people's feelings would not allow her.
8/28
I spent a lot of time with Sweet T, the Lady Libra. She was 20 years my junior, but age was truly only a number. We shared many precious moments together, through ups and very downs, including her being homeless for a period of time. While I knew her she lived in at least 3 different places, which we christened them all. Although we were severely romantic, she already had 2 children, and at one time was pregnant with her third child. No, it was not mine.
8/29
From somewhere, I got a severe cold and cough. I been suffering for a few days now and it has affected my everything. My pressure is erratic, to say the least and I'm at a loss as to how to medicate myself; with hypertension you can't just take anything. Needless to say I'm suffering right now.
C.G. was the very first of the PYTs of my adult life. Although we were only 6 years apart when I met her, she was only 15. I was amazed at her maturity. She was a Sagittarius who was well ahead of her time. We shared a lot of feelings but no romance. Years later when she became of age, we thought about it, but her care for other people's feelings would not allow her.
8/28
I spent a lot of time with Sweet T, the Lady Libra. She was 20 years my junior, but age was truly only a number. We shared many precious moments together, through ups and very downs, including her being homeless for a period of time. While I knew her she lived in at least 3 different places, which we christened them all. Although we were severely romantic, she already had 2 children, and at one time was pregnant with her third child. No, it was not mine.
8/29
From somewhere, I got a severe cold and cough. I been suffering for a few days now and it has affected my everything. My pressure is erratic, to say the least and I'm at a loss as to how to medicate myself; with hypertension you can't just take anything. Needless to say I'm suffering right now.
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