Hell yeh, I feel betrayed in many ways and means. Yet I've grown out of it, or I would like to think I have. The true test for me would be if she came back into my life with an apology and an admission of guilt and wrongdoing. How would I react to that? Would I believe that she wouldn't revert to her old ways of thinking and everything would be as fine as it was before? I don't think so. I love hard but I would have to pass on the possibility that she might pass some STD to me. I don't know if I would ever trust it. I've come too far now, with too many past incidents like that that could have been my last.
7/20
Some things are better left unsaid. There's a lot on my mind, on the tip of my tongue, that is poised and waiting to be said. Out of respect for myself I will leave these things as they are, unsaid. Course it all comes down to how deeply disturbed I am by the injustices that were done to me and how much do I crave revenge.
7/21
I've done about all I can do. There is nothing else left to say. For now I have moved on with the business at hand part of my life and have realized my life ambition of late of being a teacher. I teach poetry to thousands of students throughout the world, which is even bigger than I ever imagined.Now, as for the social aspect of my life, a lot of the pieces are in place. In the near future when I will be in a position, a better position to express that side, I will move full speed ahead.
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